1.Wishing Well
Standing on a bus stop
Feeling your head pop
Out in the night
On the kind of night
Where you want to be out
On the street, on the street
Crawling up the walls
Like a cat in heat
And the air is thin
And it blows through your skin
And you feel like something
Is about to begin
But you don't know what
And you don't know when
So you tear at your hair
And you scratch at your skin
You wanna run away, run away
Just get on the fucking train and leave today
And it doesn't matter where you spend the night
You just might end up somewhere in a fight, in a fight
Or caught in your room on a concrete shelf
Fighting all alone, with yourself, with yourself
And you just wanna feel like a coin that's been tossed
In a wishing well, a wishing well
A wishing well, a wishing well
Well, you're tossed in the air
And you fell and you fell
Through the dark blue waters
Where you cast your spell
Like you were just a wish that could turn out well
So you stand on the corner
Where the angels sit
And you think to yourself,
'This is it, this is it,
This is all that I have
All I can stand
Is this air in my lungs
And this coin in my hand
That you tossed in the air
And I fell, and I fell
All the way to the bottom
Of the well, of the well
Like those soft little secrets
That you tell, that you tell
To yourself, when you think
No one's listening to, well'
And the walls spin
And you're paper-thin
From the haze of the smoke
And the mescaline
The threat of your brow
Under unmade sheets
In your ear with the noise
From the darkest streets
We ran far and wide
You screamed, you cried
You thought suicide was an alibi
But you were always a mess
You were always aloof
Yeah, it's awful, I guess
But it's the awful truth
It was truth from the first
To the last words that she read
And she emerged from the dark
Like a ghost in my head
She said, 'I haven't forgot
Any words that you said
I just stare at the clocks
And I cry in my sleep
And I tear up your letters
And I burn them in heaps
And I gather the ashes
In that hole in the ground
Where we fell'
2.Papillon
All dressed up, no place to run
No car, no girl, no pills, no fun
Nothing to do in this empty room
I gotta get my head together soon
Alone again, no plans, no friends
You come around at half past ten
You say 'How are you holding up my friend？
Are you sitting around getting drunk again？'
And I hear the desperation of those lines
Wasted hours, others wasted time
Uh, yeah, I been just fine!
Then we're out the door in an hour more
We stumble down from the second floor
And we're swaying, braying
We don't know what we're saying
And you grab my shirt, your way so curt
I swear to God that this doesn't hurt
When you stare like that, you put on that act
You say something and then you take it back
And I feel as though I've done something wrong
Oh, how I miss you when you're gone
And I wish I had the guts to scream
You know, things aren't always what they seem
When you walk away, I want to stay
Don't leave me here to pace and pray
All these nights I burnt, hours I turned
You think that by now I'd learnt
That you're only what you pretend to be
I guess that was just lost on me
I can't stand the way you look at me
In that dress
Oh, happy, alright I might be, I guess
If I wasn't such a mess
I'm such a mess
I'm such a mess
I'm such a mess
I'm such a mess
3.Gasoline
Five, six, seven, eight
All the time awake, you're still on my mind
But we were on our own almost all the time
And she'll step away for a second or two
And I close my eyes and I think of you
We were only seventeen, we were holding in our screams
Like we'd torn it from the pages of some lipstick magazine
And you scratch and turn and say
Let's burn ourselves up 'til we scream like gasoline
Those tender days at your mother's house
And your father would find my hand inside your blouse
But they tell me that you're married now
Oh my dear, I fear I can't understand how
We were only seventeen, we were holding back our screams
Like we'd torn our lives from the pages of some girly magazines
And you scratch and turn and say
Let's burn these sheets down to the seams like gasoline
I was only twenty one, I wasn't having any fun
And the words you said
Tore through my head like bullets from a gun
And I shoulda just shown up and said get in this car, let's run
And these years have seen so many imitations turning green
Each like the last, they go right past like credits on a screen
But your memory blazes through me
Burning everything like gasoline, like gasoline, like gasoline
4.Happiness Is Overrated
And speaking of little Miss Catherine
I feel swell, oh well
Because losing you
Was something I always did so well
I guess I just can't tell anymore
And the feeling I get when I see your clothes spread out on my
floor
Oh, I'm such a bore, I'm such a bore I don't do anything anymore
I just count these ceiling tiles falling to my floor
Sorry, I really lost my head
I'm sorry, I really lost my head
But you know those words that you said
They get stuck here in my head
And this feeling I dread it makes me wish I was dead
Or just alone instead, I'll be alone instead
I don't need anyone in this bed
Just these ceiling tiles falling through my head
Sorry, I really lost my head
Oh, I'm so sorry, I really lost my head
Oh, those words you said
5.Does This Mean You're Moving On
And the funny thing is it has no end
I try to call you up, at 2am
In a crowded bar, your ringer tones
Grab my mind
I can see you through the phone,
The phone, the phone
And I'm wide awake at home
At home, at home
So think I'll seem like (？)
And hope you don't catch
The bourbon on my breath
My breath, my breath
Catch a cab outside on Seventh Street
And the cars fly through the Bowery
I come to your door and I hear a moan
Then another voice, so Christ, she's not alone
Alone, alone
And my heart sinks like a stone
A stone, a stone
And the tears won't even come
I feel so numb
So swept aside, so dumb
So dumb, so dumb
When the words are wrong
And my patience gone
Will you tell me
Does this mean you're moving on？
From the balcony, you call my name
I see you standing in the rain
Your words so dry, your face so wet
Said I broke your heart,
But it hasn't happened yet
I'll bet, your friends all hate me now
I get the strangest looks,
From that bitchy crowd
And though, they must think
They have every reason to
I guess I'm still not quite yet over you
When the words are wrong
And you're hanging on
Another guy's arm
Does this mean you're moving on？
6.This Is Nowhere
We all sit on the curb and we stare at the rain in our boots
The car, the clouds, the sky
While Ishmael wraps himself in the sheet again
He'll clench his fists and close his eyes
I don't know how many times I can loan him my cigarettes
When I don't even know if he's alive
Do prophets lie？ It makes me feel less horrified
And my closet's filled with all these endless accouterments
These shoes, these scars, these shirts, these ties
And these things I say to make myself feel good again
I'll speak, I'll write, I'll laugh, I'll lie
I can't bear to sit here and drink myself sick again another
night
When everything I know was just a lie
And I don't even know where I'll sleep tonight
I got nothing to do but stare at these walls
And take some time to screw my head on right
We all ended up alone wasted here at Silver Lake
We'll work, we'll feed, we'll change, we'll try
I can't make any sense of this or you or anything
I'm wide awake and all our parents lied
It's not alright and all our words collide, awake all night
7.Sometime Around Midnight
And it starts sometime around midnight
Or at least that's when you lose yourself for a minute or two
As you stand under the bar lights
And the band plays some song about forgetting yourself for a
while
And the piano's this melancholy sound check to her smile
And that white dress she's wearing, you haven't seen her for a
while
But you know that she's watching
She's laughing, she's turning, she's holding her tonic like a
crux
The room suddenly spinning, she walks up and asks how you are
So you can smell her perfume, you can see her lying naked in
your arms
And so there's a change in your emotions
And all of these memories come rushing like feral waves to your
mind
Of the curl of your bodies like two perfect circles entwined
And you feel hopeless and homeless and lost in the haze of the
wine
Then she leaves with someone you don't know
But she makes sure you saw her, she looks right at you and bolts
As she walks out the door your blood boiling, your stomach in
ropes
And when your friends say what is it you look like you've seen a
ghost
Then you walk under the streetlights
And you're too drunk to notice that everyone is staring at you
You still care what you look like, the world is falling around
you
You just have to see her, you just have to see her
You just have to see her, you just have to see her
You just have to see her to know that she'll break you in two
8.Something New
What's passed these hands？
All these drugs and one night stands
So I tremble when I think of what she'd do
She'd say something like
You're no good, you're like the junkies in this neighborhood
We all need a fix, I guess I need one too
But I'm trying madly to calm these nerves with something new
I got this heavy debt, I have nothing left
But this daunting weight slung round my neck
You got the callous mouth, all your endless doubts
We spent this fifteen weeks trying to work it out
Do you think we're getting to something new？
Oh God, not another fight
I'm always trying to get the details right
I remember when you told me you felt saved
When you promised you'd lay flowers on my grave
Just like they used to do, is it something new？
And now here I stand with these blood soaked hands
On this sleepless night that never ends
And these songs I sing with these hopes that I cling to
Desperately wondering are we finally getting to something new？
Is it something new？
Are we finally to something new？
9.Missy
Missy got off the bus one day
In a crowd of people, downtown LA
She looked around as if to say, 'I'm home'
But I'm home
I find someone to love
And some place to drink
And some time when I can just sit and think
And I don't mind if I catch the stink of these drones
Lord, of these drones
Just as long as I'm never alone
She had eyes as big as porcelain plates
And skin as thin as paper drapes
And she loved the Lord the way an apostate loves songs
And she'd sing to him before she went to sleep：
'I pray to you, my soul to keep
You're shepherd, then I'll be your sheep
Until dawn, oh until dawn
Well I'd follow you, even if it was wrong'
I met her one night at the coffee shop
Her face so bright, my heart just stopped
Hello my dear, I fear I'm not what I seem
Not what I seem
I should've become a better man
I should be more deserving than
The beggar, thief and courtesan I've been
Oh, that I've been
But I swear, I lie, I curse all of my dreams
But I swear there's still some good in me
And I think if you stuck around you'd see
All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
I lie awake every night, staring at the ceiling
Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
But I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad
10.Innocence
Well, I lost my innocence today
I could feel her in my bones
My bones, my bones, my bones
My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood
And I woke up, tired, scared and sad
Soaked, drained, I felt so bad
Today, today, today
What you still, you still, you still, you still
Won't you say, you say, you say, you say
What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel
Which is nothing but hollow feelings, yeah
I can, done, I just don't care
And forget happiness, I'm fine
I'll forget everything in time
I swear I didn't know,
You know me, how I can't let go
And we're not guts, we're just hacks
All that life amongst the cracks
The scars, the siege that breaks
The ugliest scene, the worst mistakes
And everywhere I see her face
Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste
And there's no innocence like hers
Just emptiness and nerves
And this light from the window of my car
She'll never see it, oh my God
I was so surprised, it blew up in my face
Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God...
Oh my God, oh my... God
And I tear, I tear, so hard...
And I tear, I tear, so hard...
And I beg and scream, 'I was wrong'
It's over, she's gone
11.The Winning Side
Well I admit to the mistakes
At least privately, in takes
Theres another one
And I'd say we'll be okay
But thats a lie man, I mean hey
We're all dying young
It's not a wish, although it seems
It's more like a terrifying dream
And I'm serious
It's either whisky or a bong
or a car crash or a bomb
I'm serious
Because the only thing I think
When I wake up in my bed
And my stomach turns
As these pages turn
Is the world buring？
Is it only in my head？
On the screen on the T.V.
On the scene in front of me
With all the white noise
And the static and stark little screams
This is war, this is death
This has really been a bet
On the winning side
The winning side
The winning side
The winning side
And i'm sitting in a train
Over Brooklyn in the rain
All by myself
When a thought occurs to me
That all these people want to be
Just somewhere else
Like everyday it's just a loss
Spent arguing with your boss
Over a coffee break
Well the same is true for me
I mean one more indignity
And I'm going to break
Because the only thing I think
When he walks out on the screen
He says the sky falls
And your duty calls
Man, it takes some balls
To be so obscene
On the screen on the T.V.
All the scene in front of me
With all the white noise
And the stark little screams
This is war, this is death
This has really been a bet
On the winning side
The winning side
The winning side
The winning side
The right side
The right side
Well they shipped you off
And your parents cried
It all falls away so quietly
When you wake up to reality
A reality
What's reality
What's reality
What's reality
It's a fucking play
Well I've got a brother in Iraq
And I've got no way to get him back
Like all those people in the sands
Buried in Afganistan
I got a child in a crib
I got a father in a bib
I got no pills
I got no skills
I got no idea what I did
I just wonder every second
Every minute that passes by
Are we living, are we dreaming,
are We winning where we die
In the cloud of dust
In a mushroom burst
In a series of dead
With ？ first
All alone in a hospital bed
Wondering what we might have done instead
With a life time
a life time
Well we paid our dues and we did our time
But, please tell me exactly what was our crime
When I stand, struck by this farthing lie
I'm losing sight
I'm losing ties
I hope you choke
On all your lies
12.This Losing
Standing at your doorway
With my stomach all tangled n tight
Have it your way
Oh God, where are you tonight？？
Cuz I don't know what I'm doing here
Or where to begin
So take a deep breath
But darling, don't let me in
A thousand times we've said,
'I'm sorry it's over again'
I can't live like this
Or feel like this in my own skin
It all seems so degrading
And the mourning such sin
Face just like a child's
Oh darling, don't let me in
And we laughed just like children
In waiting, in sheets on your bed
Why we secretly pray
Like we're mourning the dead
And you tell me you're so weary
I know
Cuz I'm weary too
But hold back a tear
But darling, what a way to do
And the wine, and the rain
And the feel of your skin
Against mine
I'm swimming, I'm flying, I'm dying
This face n this fear
Stay with me, Oh stay with me my dear
This hand
This glow
It's only thing that I love
There's losing
There's losing
There's losing
There's losing
There's losing
There's losing love
13.The Girls In Their Summer Dresses
It's so quiet on this wind swept day
The city's lights
And the golden rays
Of sunlight on a subway'a tracks
Are you mad again？？
If you like
I'll take it back
They're just your feelings
I wasn't looking at her hands
Oh, do you mean it？？
It's so lonesome
In 'this happens' stance
If you asked me？
Yes, I'd like to dance
Just show me a glove-covered hand
A perfumed dress is more than I can stand..
And you approach me with your hollow hearted hand
And you tell me：
'It's uncivilized
It's unfair to me
The blues, the grays, the olive greens'
I'll take you far away from me
The girls in their summer dresses see
Though you don't notice
They all look back at me
Is this on purpose？？
Oh no, no, no..
Oh no, no, no..
Oh no, no, no..
May offer to you..
This, my olive branch？？
It's not as though they're always so keen
And we're both just the victims of circumstance
Do you understand,
Do you know what I mean？？
Oh no, no, no..
Oh no, no, no..
Oh no, no, no..
Oh no, no, no..
I'm a husband first
I'm a childless curse
I'm a faithful man
With a face that's blessed
I'll stay with you
Oh please don't sigh
I try to explain
But you would cry, and cry, and cry
And you hate me
When I asked the reason why
You'll trade me a dollar for some sense？
But don't blame me
I was only making sense
Oh I'm so sorry
I was only making sense
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